at the start of the yr, it was a love w/o hesitation, one w/o boundaries...if u had asked me to rate my love on a scale from 1 to 10, my answer is simple...off the scale. why? bcos i was willing to do anything for him. making a fool of myself just to get a smile, going all out to make him feel better... a smile, just one, would have made not only my day, but my week. everytime i turn a corner, my heart starts beating fast, heralding his POSSIBLE arrival... only a possibility, yet it never fails to achieve that dry mouth effect. then what if i actually saw him? well, my smile could have powered the entire nation for a year if u were able to harness its energy...making detours just to pass his bench, maybe catch a glimpse of him, better yet, a smile of acknowledgement...
soon, the detours became the usual day-to-day route...yet it somehow changed...waxing on and on about him was ritual...the mind was on him, but the heart wasnt in it...not seeing him doesnt seem that much of a disaster afterall...was it falling out of love? yet it couldnt be the case cos a smile from him still generates warmth in my being...was the love gone? or merely the excitement of initial love?
many a times i thought of giving up in him, cos he just wasnt returning the feelings...n the problem with continual giving? it's not only tiring, but heartbreaking too...hopes flash up and down like a stock market gone crazy...yet it always ends with a crash...in the real world, the business would have long been kicked out of the market...so should i cut my losses and drop the matter...
yet this teeny weeny itsy bitsy hope still drags my steps...what if he feels the way i feel for him? n is just lag in replying...or showing? perhaps, a bit longer...just a bit more...
n the "bit" drags on...yet i still havent gave up...cos the hope still lives on in me...a tiny stubborn flame...that wavers but never dies...a flame that could warm u for a lifetime, or one to extinguish ur life...
one-sided love is painful...yet if we never experience it, would we still be able to treasure a two-sided relationship? people out there, feeling the same way i do, think of the blessings, perhaps wish on a star...those of you with the one u love who loves u back, count on your lucky stars...n perhaps make a wish for me?
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