yo...damn was one sad day full of coincedences...actually its a sad day cos of the coincedences...coz the rest of the day was fine...
saw him thousands of times today, just went i was trying so hard to forget bout him...he didnt share my feelings for him, so i couldnt cling on to false hopes any longer...
was having my chanbara sabbaticals at SALT centre's foyer...it was quite instructive n now my muscles r kinda tired aft all the lunging and swiping...haha guess i m just weak aft blocks...
at around 2, he came...with 2 of his friends n they stoo d n stare at my sabbats group....he was standing diagonally behind me, on my right, about a metre away...so when i heard the sound of footsteps n turned around, LO AND BEHOLD, there he was... i immediately went "wide-eyed" (O.O) n when he saw me, he did too... so i swerved around n tried to hide... (instincts)...i was hoping he would go b4 we came to the prac part of whatever moves the instructor was talking about...n he disappeared, so i went "whew"...just as we got into our combat positions, n started violently whacking our partners, i looked up, n there he was on the 2nd floor...omg...apparently he"disappeared" into the stairwell...
so again, he "disappeared" a second time. aft he left not long, the instructor gave us a half an hour break...being very hyper at that moment, i asked my frens to go to the gym with me...so we went cardio rm n did some running n then up to the weights rm...guess who was there? BINGO! there he was...i was shocked! firstly, there he was again, next, i nv knew he went gym-ing...(guess most jc guys go, to whip themselves in shape b4 NS) so i went on a "merry-go round" game with him, where he went, i immediately moved to the opp of the rm to avoid him...perhaps n by small luck, he managed not to see me? though the rm was quite small, there were lots of equipments in the way, so maybe...
went out to get a breather while my health nut fren did her situps...went in to call them out...n wow, he was standing behind the doors...so i walk as briskly as i could w/o actually running, n got my frens out...
so back to prac...n when he came out again, another "staring at my sabbats" session...sigh...be still my heart... couldnt help staring at his back as he walked away...sigh, i m a helpless ,love sick fool...
but i didnt noe what to do...i confessed my feelings to him...2 times...thru letters...he nv replied or even acknowledged them...so? he must not share my sentiments...plus, he's avoidance of me on several accounts, left me in no doubt that he didnt wanna speak to me...or even c me...
so i didnt dare...didnt dare look him in the eyes...
all i could do was, look away in embarrassment...sigh love idiot!